second chance??

[Sunday_10pm]

I've got to interject here. I don't want to offend, but this looks like it could be a situation i've seen before. Remember I'm sticking my nose into affairs I have almost no knowledge of, but hey, if what I say doesn't apply, feel free to overlook my comments. Ask why you are so afraid of losing her. Is it because she really is a great friend? (and this is where you must not take offense if I miss the mark, but bear in mind you have already told me that you're interested in more than just her friendship) Or are you keeping her close because you're dreaming that one day she'll be yours to tickle/be tickled by everyday? There's no shame in the latter, but if it's true, you need to let go. Especially if you think she's keeping you on some sort of "B-list". When I was younger I knew a girl who thought she was to good for anyone. I kept her as close as I could for as long as I could, because (and there's no use denying it) I really wanted to fuck her. I was only young though, and I ended up feeling/looking rejected/foolish. She went out with a few older guys, and ended up getting used herself. She then came back to me for support. It was an ego boost I'll tell you that. I wish I could have said "frankly my dear.." but there was noone there to see it and remark at how cool I am, so I acted like I was sorry.. I thought "this'll be easy. I'll use her for a while and then drop her". But I quickly convinced myself she had actually learnt her lesson and although at the time, she probably had changed alot, it wasn't long before I was made to look stupid again.

 

[phatteus]

Ticklebutton, thank you for that compliment. I wish I could say the same about most of my friends.

Knox, thanks for your advice, for some reason, I know I can trust you on serious topics like this.

Sundat10am, aside from your "location" making me laugh my ass off, I appreciate the hypothesis you put forth here. I think that early in our friendship, I had anticipated romance and unihibited stuff the likes of which I had never experienced, simply because here was a woman who was... how do I put this in a way that won't make me sound like an idiot? She was actually paying attention to me. So my "friendship with her was a ruse to get closer to her in order to change our relationship status from "like" to "love". After I realized that romance was not in her interest, (it did take me far longer to notice this than it probably should have), I made the decision to drop her. The thing was that dropping her became the last thing I wanted to do. I really did like this girl, and I enjoyed her company. We kept seeing each other, and now we get together about twice a month. Do I still wonder how her engines feel? Of course! (and her legs, and her lips, and her... shut up Phatteus) Do I still want to be tickled by her? Damn straight. Do I think my friendship with her is only a subconscious ploy to remain in her good graces so that one day she will look at me and see the stud that I am and be swept up in my arms and tickle the crap out of me as I make sweet love to her? Besides the fact that I am sweating rather profusely right now, I can't answer that question, other than to say I really don't care. I'm hurting no one but myself if that is the case, and until I decide that the friendship isn't woth the wait, I will remain her friend.
Am I wrong? Tell me if I am.

 

[phatteus]

Thanks Flatfoot... your "carrot" analogy is very interesting...and very close, I think to my predicament.