I assume you mean in reference to THIS lifestyle? I always give the same answer. I'm pretty much a "steal the scene, run the show" kind of gal. Submitting for me is exciting because I get to play a very different role than who I am in my day-to-day life.
Make sense?
Not sure I completely understand what you're looking for in an answer, but basically, it was always there with me. I had certain fetishes before I understood what fetishes were.
I'll add this , what was it that flipped the "ON" switch in the very beginning , was it something seen or something heard , a certain action done to ones self or to another . What came along to bring this new found feeling to life ?
OK, gotcha. Seeing bondage in cartoons or comic books produced certain reactions in me, I didn't get what that meant at the time. When I hit puberty, I made the connection.