I know that I have kinda stopped posting. I know that I have deleted all of my social media.
What I don't know is if I will ever stop grieving the loss of my mother and of my best friend.
What I don't know is if this will ever be fun to me again like it used to be.
The weekends are the absolute hardest because I cannot hide myself in hours and hours of work.
Part of me wants to indulge just to feel alive again.
But I'll admit this heartbreak has me unwilling to open up let alone take the chance to schedule something with anyone new.
Man! This is the toughest thing I have ever had to go through.
Still going through it.
What I don't know is if I will ever stop grieving the loss of my mother and of my best friend.
What I don't know is if this will ever be fun to me again like it used to be.
The weekends are the absolute hardest because I cannot hide myself in hours and hours of work.
Part of me wants to indulge just to feel alive again.
But I'll admit this heartbreak has me unwilling to open up let alone take the chance to schedule something with anyone new.
Man! This is the toughest thing I have ever had to go through.
Still going through it.
