My Bootcamp is going quite well. I'm already back to 3 hour cardio workouts. My sleep has improved 10 fold by cutting way back. Not going online at nighttime. Great idea. For the last few years I have only been getting 3-4 hours of sleep per night. And now I'm already back to 5-8. Thank goodness... I've been a nervous zombielike wreck for quite a while. Its hard to be in a good mood when you are never rested. So reading books instead has been wonderful again. And filling my time with more exercise is hard but... I lost 4 pounds already. Woohoo! 
So I'm already happier and healthier. A pair of jeans I have fit slightly better. Yay!!
I also have to say that... spending less time online was hard at first... (I knew it would be.) But the results speak for themselves. I do tend to overthink things with what I say. (Did I say that right? Did she/ he take offense to what I wrote? Is this person upset with me because of whatever.) Being online can be like an ongoing mindfuck... When you get as much attention as I have... (I'm not bragging. I'm a woman here of the few.) It becomes that much harder to just come online and hang out. It's felt like I have been under a magnifying glass at times. And sometimes even felt stalked. Which induces paranoia with whatever I write, make, or do. Thats not fun or good for me. Or anyone.And thats wherever we go online... not just here or sexual themed sites.
So overall this is going well. And I will adjust more as time goes on as to how to do what I NEED to do in what is truly best for me. Its not easy policing myself. Food issues alone... oh man... I dreamt of Doritos the other night. But... I just need to be the Dorito Police. So be it.
*turns on sirens*
In this day and age where happiness can be hard to come by... it's so important to start controlling what ends up being just not good for you. or a good fit. It will always be a mixed bag when you interract (Like the chat room). As much as I have enjoyed going there... I will only go in once in awhile. Or I may have to stay out of there completly. Some people who go in there just do not have good intentions. And since I know they are there, and always will be... well just like Doritos... it can only be a once in awhile thing to do. If at all. It's just whats best for me. (And maybe for you.)
Now that I have found and refound multiple paths I can take to have a healthier lifestyle both physically and mentally. Stress relief. I'll be abe to relax more and control my online enviornment better. This is a big part of what my Bootcamp is for. And its working. Still have a long way to go but... the yellow brick road probably went on for hundreds of miles. I'm back at mile one. But thats ok... at least I'm on it. And thats the hardest part.
Till next time,
Doll
So I'm already happier and healthier. A pair of jeans I have fit slightly better. Yay!! I also have to say that... spending less time online was hard at first... (I knew it would be.) But the results speak for themselves. I do tend to overthink things with what I say. (Did I say that right? Did she/ he take offense to what I wrote? Is this person upset with me because of whatever.) Being online can be like an ongoing mindfuck... When you get as much attention as I have... (I'm not bragging. I'm a woman here of the few.) It becomes that much harder to just come online and hang out. It's felt like I have been under a magnifying glass at times. And sometimes even felt stalked. Which induces paranoia with whatever I write, make, or do. Thats not fun or good for me. Or anyone.And thats wherever we go online... not just here or sexual themed sites.
So overall this is going well. And I will adjust more as time goes on as to how to do what I NEED to do in what is truly best for me. Its not easy policing myself. Food issues alone... oh man... I dreamt of Doritos the other night. But... I just need to be the Dorito Police. So be it.
*turns on sirens*
In this day and age where happiness can be hard to come by... it's so important to start controlling what ends up being just not good for you. or a good fit. It will always be a mixed bag when you interract (Like the chat room). As much as I have enjoyed going there... I will only go in once in awhile. Or I may have to stay out of there completly. Some people who go in there just do not have good intentions. And since I know they are there, and always will be... well just like Doritos... it can only be a once in awhile thing to do. If at all. It's just whats best for me. (And maybe for you.)
Now that I have found and refound multiple paths I can take to have a healthier lifestyle both physically and mentally. Stress relief. I'll be abe to relax more and control my online enviornment better. This is a big part of what my Bootcamp is for. And its working. Still have a long way to go but... the yellow brick road probably went on for hundreds of miles. I'm back at mile one. But thats ok... at least I'm on it. And thats the hardest part.
Till next time,
Doll
