Because I do. It's been many months since we've talked, many many.
She knew the ex I broke up with earlier tonight. So, I called her. I was like "hey, guess what I did?" We talked. It was good.
I...... won't post here what exactly is going on with me internally because I know she will probably read it, which is something I love about her. She takes interest in how I feel. Or... she used to at least. But I will recap what I said to her.
I told her that I feel like any time we have a fight or whatever, I initiate the talk. This time, I want her to do it, if she wants to. She understands this point.
The conversation lasted about an hour and a half, mostly good stuff, catching up, etc etc. We did talk about the past, she knows where I stand on it, I'm not going to push where she stands on it like I told her I wouldn't.
I know I didn't post or tell anybody here much about the break up, but it was... fucked. I won't go into it here because again, that's a conversation for her when she's ready for it.
So..... fuck my life, fuck my night, and actually, I'm pretty damn happy. I can credit her, sure. But in reality, I'm happy I made the choice to call her. Sure, she may tell me she never wants to be with me and I should go fuck myself, or she can put me in the friend zone, or she could do a number of things.
But so can I. And my choice is to do the right thing, whatever I feel that may be at the time.....
She knew the ex I broke up with earlier tonight. So, I called her. I was like "hey, guess what I did?" We talked. It was good.
I...... won't post here what exactly is going on with me internally because I know she will probably read it, which is something I love about her. She takes interest in how I feel. Or... she used to at least. But I will recap what I said to her.
I told her that I feel like any time we have a fight or whatever, I initiate the talk. This time, I want her to do it, if she wants to. She understands this point.
The conversation lasted about an hour and a half, mostly good stuff, catching up, etc etc. We did talk about the past, she knows where I stand on it, I'm not going to push where she stands on it like I told her I wouldn't.
I know I didn't post or tell anybody here much about the break up, but it was... fucked. I won't go into it here because again, that's a conversation for her when she's ready for it.
So..... fuck my life, fuck my night, and actually, I'm pretty damn happy. I can credit her, sure. But in reality, I'm happy I made the choice to call her. Sure, she may tell me she never wants to be with me and I should go fuck myself, or she can put me in the friend zone, or she could do a number of things.
But so can I. And my choice is to do the right thing, whatever I feel that may be at the time.....
