She knows. I told her how I feel. It was funny, actually.
I just got hired as a pizza delivery driver at Domino's. My manager called me to tell me when I have to begin my training. So the first thing I do is "hey, I know you're my manager, but I got a question. See, there's this girl...." etc etc etc.
So then I call her. She's on her way to work, but she picks up. She always did pick up when I called. Maybe she does it for everybody, who gives a fuck, she did it for me. And I tell her the story and what my manager said. And then I say "so did the girl get the message?" She said she did.
I've been calling her pet names, sending pictures, she's been returning the pictures she kept, and said it's okay if I call her our old pet names, though she has not returned the favor so far.
I let her know that if at any point she can't reciprocate the emotions to let me know. Living a lie is bad, ya know?
So that's that. She knows how I feel. Never been much for religion, but if I did pray it would be a very minimal amount. This would be one thing I'd pray for. Weather for her to be over us and have moved on from me entirely, or to tell me she still believes. Either way, I want her to be at peace. And while I realize that she's probably not thinking about it is as deeply as I am, I'm okay with that.
From what I gather, she just wants to see where things are with me at this point. I can say she'll be happy with 100% certainty. Not that she wasn't before, but things have been changing for the better.
So while I may not get my Disney story ending and get a tragedy at any given second in the form of a text or a call, I'm going to fight for her for as long as she'll let me. All the while keeping myself... well... me. I won't lose myself in her, I won't let her lose herself in me.
And with a fraction of luck and a whole lot of emotion, I will make a blog entry one day titled.....
"We'll be the best in the world"
I just got hired as a pizza delivery driver at Domino's. My manager called me to tell me when I have to begin my training. So the first thing I do is "hey, I know you're my manager, but I got a question. See, there's this girl...." etc etc etc.
So then I call her. She's on her way to work, but she picks up. She always did pick up when I called. Maybe she does it for everybody, who gives a fuck, she did it for me. And I tell her the story and what my manager said. And then I say "so did the girl get the message?" She said she did.
I've been calling her pet names, sending pictures, she's been returning the pictures she kept, and said it's okay if I call her our old pet names, though she has not returned the favor so far.
I let her know that if at any point she can't reciprocate the emotions to let me know. Living a lie is bad, ya know?
So that's that. She knows how I feel. Never been much for religion, but if I did pray it would be a very minimal amount. This would be one thing I'd pray for. Weather for her to be over us and have moved on from me entirely, or to tell me she still believes. Either way, I want her to be at peace. And while I realize that she's probably not thinking about it is as deeply as I am, I'm okay with that.
From what I gather, she just wants to see where things are with me at this point. I can say she'll be happy with 100% certainty. Not that she wasn't before, but things have been changing for the better.
So while I may not get my Disney story ending and get a tragedy at any given second in the form of a text or a call, I'm going to fight for her for as long as she'll let me. All the while keeping myself... well... me. I won't lose myself in her, I won't let her lose herself in me.
And with a fraction of luck and a whole lot of emotion, I will make a blog entry one day titled.....
"We'll be the best in the world"
