I just came home to change and do laundry. I want to thank everyone for their prayers. It means so much.
I dont think I have a suit. I dont want to sue. I just want my mom's last days to be peaceful.
Since I was last home, I have more information.
I was told by the Drs last night that my mom has two options. Do nothing, be comfortable, and die, within likely 60 days or less.. Or..,. take something called what I believe is Gamma Brain radiation, with some side effects, and extend life. They are talking months, not years. I took the radiologist Dr to the room today, and my mom clearly told him she doesnt want to do nothing and die. So.. we will take the brain radiation, and hope and pray for the best.
I was prepared to do whatever my mom wanted. My aunt, I, and my father, thought maybe it was time for her not to suffer, and just to pass. (To be clear, my fathers position is NOT because he wants her check back.) With all my bitching about him on here through the years, he has been wonderful to me since I called him. He said if they were still married, and even now, he wouldnt want her to suffer.
My aunt thinks that its two things: One, my mom is afraid to die. Two, she doesnt want to leave me, even though my dad will get me a position, and help me set up a life. My dad was upset today because he thought she was only hanging on for me, and wanted to send her a letter, telling her he'll make sure I'm okay, and to go to peace if she wants to. My aunt and I think such a letter is premature.
I dont delude myself to believe she has long. I'll be thankful if I get to spend one last Mother's Day with her. Once the Dr explained the side effects, I told him that if she really is suffering, to please encourage her to stop. He said we have to take it all one day at a time.
I got an email from my mom's Dr in NJ. He said he wants to treat her himself. With her physical condition now, that isnt possible. I told him if she improves, we can discuss it.
Thanks everyone. The support means more than you can imagine. When my mom's time does come, in two months, or six, I know you all will be there for me, to lean on during the worst time of my life.
Mitch