1.] Was there any time even for a brief moment that you actually thought The Rapture was really going to happen?
Recently? No.
But many years ago I was a bible-believin', rootin-tootin', rapture-ready Christian (albeit a bad one who wanked a lot and went to church to pick up girls). Although it may not be biblically sound, the rapture certainly slotted itself neatly into the framework of my belief, at least as easily as the dinosaurs or continental drift did.
2.] What do you feel has changed most about yourself within your fetish based off using the forum/meeting folks/chatting/ect ?
Self-confidence. I don't owe it
ALL to the forum & meeting folk in the scene etc, but it certainly allowed me to become more confident in who I was, and what I did. I found out that people actually got on well with me (I also found out that some people do not, and that's okay), it allowed me to not care so much about being judged for the way I act, and it made me realise that despite the many differences I have with my friends, variety is the spice of life and I don't want to chat to carbon copies of myself.
3.] Is there a place you want to play/have a session where you have not yet had the chance?
No specific place that I can think of; location isn't key for me, it's who I'm playing with.
4.] What is the purpose of play/scene for you? What do you hope to get out to of the experience?
Again, this one depends entirely in context. Most of my play tends to happen at fetish clubs around Scotland; now, given the nature of the licensing & sex laws in Scotland, this means nothing of an intrinsically *sexual* nature can happen at a fetish club (i.e. no penetration, no handjobs etc). Some places the rules are not so stringently enforced, but in general playing in clubs != sexual play. Sexual play happens at the afterparties, and on your own time.
So, to answer the question; the purpose is to have fun; my hopes are that the play arouses myself/my partner, both carnally and emotionally.
5.] If you were asked to do a workshop at a kink conference, what topic would you chose to do? Why?
Tickling. It's something that's not particularly well-versed in the Scottish scene, but since I started attending clubs more and more people seem to be jumping on the tickling bandwagon. It feels good, and it's a big ego stroke; I'm all for stroking it further.
6.] Do you enjoy rituals in your relationships? What is your favorite?
I prefer spontaneity in my relationships, but there are little, non-fetish things that I enjoy. I like getting to the point in relationships where you finish each others sentences, or where you do something/go somewhere which holds intrinsic value to the other person (maybe going to a restaurant from your first date, or a concert to see someone you know they like but have never seen live before).
7.] Do you switch? Have you been asked to switch? What was it like? Did you like parts of it?
I do. I have. It was great. And I like all of it.
8.] What was that trigger moment when you began to wonder about your place in life?
There wasn't one. I'm always vaguely wondering what my place in life will be, but I know that life gives you lemons; you have to roll with the punches, and other trite clichés as well. I tend to focus on the here and now, and although I have that vague idea in my head about where I'm going/where I want to be, I am well aware that these notions can change in a heartbeat and so I don't invest overly in them.
9.] How do you recover from the ending of a relationship?
Depends on the relationship. Usually by reassessing myself and my situation, and realising that what I had with that one person is no more special than a connection I could very easily have with someone else. I know it's a cliché, but there actually
are plenty more fish in the sea, there is no such thing as
"the one" and that no matter what happens, I'm going to be fine. There's no point letting someone else ruin your life.
10.] What are somethings people not know or guess about you?
Most people do not guess I am kinky; I keep that world very separate from the rest of my life. I'm quite a secretive individual now in many areas of my life (moreso than I used to be anyway); I keep my cards close to my chest.
When people meet me now, they have no idea that I suffered from low self esteem, that I was depressed, that I constantly worried about my image or place in life. Times have changed, and I have changed.
**Bonus: -- Let's see that picture/image/icon that sums up your mood at this moment!
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