I feel like complete shit.
I was in a relationship for almost 5 years, and we were engaged. She was perfect, from her head, down to her toes -- literally. And for awhile, she was as perfect inside as she was on the outside, but that changed and that's a whole 'nother story.
Anyway..
I've been trying to date again, but I find that if almost every woman is a compromise from the one who used to be mine, especially as far as their feet, and I find that, that in particular completely kills all chances of a relationship for me.
I know, how shallow that sounds.
I've always said I'm not a shallow person, but maybe I am? I don't know now, honestly.
When I fell in love with my ex, it was because of her whole being -- not just her body, but her soul. I fell in love with her for her intelligence, her spirit, her energy, and everything from the top of her head to the soles of her feet.
After that connection had been made, she meant so much to me that even if she had become a horribly disfigured burn victim, she would have still been the only one I wanted, and still have been the most beautiful woman in the world to me. However now, all possibility of even considering someone as a significant other is destroyed simply if their feet are not the exact kind of feet I like.
I feel like shit, for many reasons. I feel tortured because, I can't help what I want; shallow or not, I desire what I desire, and I don't want it to change because then that would only be a compromise, and it would be unfair both to me and the person I was with to feel deep down inside that they aren't really what I want, and they aren't as "good" as what I had.
What if I meet a really beautiful woman, who has the most beautiful soul, yet I can't have a relationship with her, simply because I am turned off by her feet, which are a major part of my sexuality.
I feel so depressed and confused over this. Any wisdom or advice would be great.
I was in a relationship for almost 5 years, and we were engaged. She was perfect, from her head, down to her toes -- literally. And for awhile, she was as perfect inside as she was on the outside, but that changed and that's a whole 'nother story.
Anyway..
I've been trying to date again, but I find that if almost every woman is a compromise from the one who used to be mine, especially as far as their feet, and I find that, that in particular completely kills all chances of a relationship for me.
I know, how shallow that sounds.
I've always said I'm not a shallow person, but maybe I am? I don't know now, honestly.
When I fell in love with my ex, it was because of her whole being -- not just her body, but her soul. I fell in love with her for her intelligence, her spirit, her energy, and everything from the top of her head to the soles of her feet.
After that connection had been made, she meant so much to me that even if she had become a horribly disfigured burn victim, she would have still been the only one I wanted, and still have been the most beautiful woman in the world to me. However now, all possibility of even considering someone as a significant other is destroyed simply if their feet are not the exact kind of feet I like.
I feel like shit, for many reasons. I feel tortured because, I can't help what I want; shallow or not, I desire what I desire, and I don't want it to change because then that would only be a compromise, and it would be unfair both to me and the person I was with to feel deep down inside that they aren't really what I want, and they aren't as "good" as what I had.
What if I meet a really beautiful woman, who has the most beautiful soul, yet I can't have a relationship with her, simply because I am turned off by her feet, which are a major part of my sexuality.
I feel so depressed and confused over this. Any wisdom or advice would be great.