Frustration

[Helena]

I guess I am discovering more about my desires and my needs for being tickled by reading what other people have written.

I am existing as a lee with my partner, although I think in my heart I have discovered that I am a switch, and I will not openly confess to anyone verbally that I have some secret desires.

So I will confess them on this posting...the place where no one will know my true identity. I dream of being tickled in the middle of a group of ticklers, ticklers that are skilled and enjoy the art of tickle torture. At this very moment, I feel like I would gladly surrender to some of the people on this forum who have posted certain things that turn me on a lot.

I guess today I must just be really craving a good tickling.

God help me, sometimes I just want no committment, no holding back, endless, joyful tickling. The freedom of a screaming laugh without apologizing to anyone. I'd love to be worked into a sweaty, laughing, ticklish mess. Forget about politeness, or dignity, or correct manners. No worries about appearances, or acting cool and uninterested. Just give it to me.

Sometimes my feelings scare me. Am I becoming a monster? If the world that surrounds me knew how deep my desires are and the depth of my cravings, I'm not sure what would happen.

 

[Ticklish9's]

Helena, I've had days before where I've just wanted somebody, anybody to just start tickling. I wish there were some way to make it happen on demand, but alas, there isn't. However, as you meet people and make friends, odds are good you'll run into someone who is, on the inside, longing for somebody to tickle to their hearts content. Just gotta have faith. 🙂

 

[dvnc]

Welcome to your desire opening up. Happens to every person who doesn't surpress the desire. It's health to desire. Just do right by you, and by your lover.

If your lover were open to the idea of letting a group tickle you at a gathering, that's a possibility everywhere, and certainly, no one's going to be surprised when, after you've been tickled, you and your lover make a polite and sudden departure. Trust me on that. Everyone likes to see love in action, and love's own lust counts, there. Warms the heart.

dvnc

 

[Dave2112]

You, a Monster? No. Me? Yeah, I guess so......

Seriously, I fully understand where you're coming from. You're among friends, and thanks for sharing this with us. It can be tough sometimes sorting out what you are feeling, especially when society says one thing and your heart (feet, sides, belly, ribs, etc.) say another.

I often fantasize about being part of team of ticklers surrounding one 'lee and exploring her limits. You've kind of touched a chord here...😀

You'll get a lot of help from the kind people of this community. If you'd like to talk, drop me an E-Mail, I'd love to hear from you.

Keep the Faith and be true to yourself--Dave2112

 

[qjakal]

Good old fashioned lust

Just one of those emotions we all struggle with Helena. This is part of what I and others have written about...the intensity of tickling and the sheer impact it has upon us is something that mainstream society can only suspect. The fascination is powerful, and I struggle with maintaining a balance in my life/marriage because of it as well...I'm sure you will hear a similar tale from many in the forum. These feelings you have of desiring surrender correspond to my own desire to "take" control and ruthlessly exploit it....life can be sooooo funny sometimes, but we rarely laugh. Hope you can work through this... Q

 

[marcusb]

Becoming a monster? You sound normal to me. 🙂 Someday, I hope to meet someone just like you.

Thanks for sharing.

 

[ktickler]

Hi Helena:

I would not go as far as calling you a monster. Tickling is part of your personality and it is perfectly fine for you to have "cravings" and even withdrawal symptoms. That is what I would call your primal behavior. It is for you to use your rational side to "control" this urges and determine what is actually good for you.

I understand that tickling is sexual for most of us. However, I cannot think of anything else that is as harmless as tickling. Asking a partner or friend to tickle you, or force the situation to become a tickling scenario where you get tickled does not seem to me too bad.

I have always had the fear that tickling would control my life and determine my decisions. It has not been quite like that yet. I feel the need to tickle feet and to search for ways to do that. However, I do not let it get to me if it does not happen. I have learned to be very patient regarding my tickling opportunities. As I have mentioned in previous posts, I have waited years in order to be able to tickle someone.

Since you mentioned your "dream" scenario, I think I will share mine. I always wanted to have the opportunity to spend time with a woman who did not have any type of ties with me and that I could tickle in any way I wanted. I was able to do that at a dungeon and it was awesome. However, I always go back to the simplest scenario where I can just spend hour examining every single wrinkle in a pair of beautiful female's feet. I have a foot fetish after all and I can be easily satisfied if I can spend time with a couple of pretty feet that I can tickle and play with.

Every person has their little dark secret, and I do not think that makes them less of a person. It is just a matter of not letting those feelings consume you. You gotta embrace them and use them to your advantage.

Take care,

Knight Tickler

 

[46and2]

Monster??????

Don't be so hard on yourself. Guilt quite commonly accompanies hidden desires. Speaking from a ticklers point of you, it's really easy to feel like the monster you speak of. It becomes a concern with every individual you become attracted to. Especially when the issue is of what you want to do to them and not what you want them to do to you. Your very lucky to have found someone who understands and cares enough about you to indulge you in such things. I don't see why your companion would have a problem in allowing you to be at the hands of a group of ticklers as long as the both of you have trust toward them. That's something built over time by getting in with the right people and getting to know and trust them. I would recommend you simply talk to your tickler and let the cat out of the bag. If you've gone so far as to reveal your love of tickling to him/her I think you already have a great bond and understanding. However, I'm only going by what you've typed. It's just my two cents and I genuinley hope it helps. 🙂

 

[red indian]

Another notch on the bed post?

Helen says she would "gladly surrender to some of the people on this forum who have posted certain things that have turned me on a lot" well I just dont know how i do it! a couple of wise cracks here, a sarcastic put down there and the girl is putty in my hands!! and the best bit is I was not even trying! am I dynamite or what guys???!!!

 

[qjakal]

Yeah...dynamite...

Oh yeah bud! How could she resist? Perhaps you should tone it down a bit just to give the gals a chance, and not be breaking up happy homes throughout the world, okay red? Q

 

[njjen3953]

All the therapists said that I was just reenacting. That this desire would pass when I accepted my past. That it was an addiction that could be cured.
I told them all to **** off and left therapy.
Today, I am happier than i have ever been. I have found the love of my life, who makes sure I am tickled with in an inch of my life on a regular basis. I go to gatherings and relish being in a spotlight.
Helena,you can too, have all you want. Just give in to the desires as they come. No one here would judge you. Just take it as slowly as you need to and you will get there.

Feel free to e-mail me anytime,
Jen
[email protected]

 

[qjakal]

Judge?

Hmmm...far from it. More likely there's about a hundred 'lers here who are resisting leaping into your life and volunteering to relieve your stress! As Jen says, go with the flow...but go safely, okay? Q

 

[Dave2112]

Helena, sometimes I feel the need to make humorous posts, but I'll just reiterate what others like Jen, Q and all the others have said. You are ok. Really. There are a ton of worse things to be into.

I applaud you putting your neck out with your honesty.😎

 

[Darkknight]

You're far from a monster Helena.

I'm sure there are hundreds of members nodding their heads in knowing how you feel. We all do in some manner.

I fight my own demons, and sometimes tickling feels like one of them.
The desire to just let it all out and not having to say your sorry but to hear them say... "thanks, I really needed that".

You're not alone, I assure you.

Peace,
DK

 

[kurchatovium]

Please don't feel bad about yourself

I hope this posting helps you feel better about yourself Helena. You are not a monster. I spent years thinking I was the only person in the universe with this tickling fetish and consequently felt very alone. It wasn't until the internet came along that I found out that I wasn't alone at all but many people share this same desire. There are now over 2500 people on this forum who actively participate and probably twice as many who view but do not post. Lady Elizabeth has said that tickling is the number two fetish at her passive arts studio. So there are many, many people with this desire to tickle or be tickled so don't feel bad about who you are. Time is too short not to enjoy your your life as much possible, take it from someone who has wasted a good portion of his worrying about such things until recently. Take care.

 

[Strelnikov]

Yah, you're a monster...a TICKLE monster! Where were you back in 1963, when I really needed someone like you?

Seriously, you've gotten some good advice from the others. Use it in good health, and best of luck to you.

Strelnikov

 

[lightninbug]

Monster...not even close!

Helena...A lot of people ,if asked, probably felt the same way once. And then they bought a computer...Popped in the word 'tickling', hit the "search Key" and BOOM...a whole new world full of people who feel the same way. A monster, No...A human being...ABSOLUTLY! You're a witness to the fact that there are a hell of a lot of us around here. Judging by a lot of the posts I've read, they're as an intelegent, compassionate, loving, wholesome & good natured a bunch of people as one could hope to meet. A person could look down their nose at just about anything but that doesn't mean they know what they're talking about & it sure as hell doesn't make them RIGHT. All the Others that have posted here seem to have said it better than I did, anyway.
Eyes on the Prize, Darlin'...you're doin fine.
Bug
😉

 

[terorizer]

Sometimes my feelings scare me. Am I becoming a monster? If the world that surrounds me knew how deep my desires are and the depth of my cravings, I'm not sure what would happen.

Helena,

If you are becoming a monster, it has nothing to do with your tickle desires!! I think you are malnourished. A lot of us in the tickleworld are or have been. I think of it like having gone half of your life with little or no zinc or Vitamin D or any other thing that your body craves and needs.

As far as ho the world that surrounds..it depends on that world. There are all kinds. If you take a cue from your quote and steer clear of those who would belittle you, you'd find a great deal of acceptance and support. It's just human nature I believe...some of us aren't fortunate enough to get all of the support and acceptance and NOURISHMENT we need from the people we've been placed with, so there's nothing wrong with placing yourself amongst people who DO give it.

Just my opinion.