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I just want to tell you....

I was catching hell the last few weeks, and I'm not out of the woods yet either. I just recently made a quality decision: I can't do it all! I'm going to do the best I can, and God can fill in the blanks. As long as I know I did the best I could, I will be proud of the results whatever they are!

I'm not unaware that everyone else on this board (and pretty much everywhere else) has been living their own little slice of hell lately. Everyone has problems and everyone's trying to live life as best as possible. My problems have been going on for years with issues with my son and my daughter living with her father. But I must say that if it weren't for these problems, I never would've considered going back to school. I was living in an empty home with two cats and my kids on the weekends. I got tired of feeling sorry for myself and desired a real life for a change. It took me to raise one child into adulthood and the other almost out of high school to realize that I didn't know who I was and had lost any sense of identity. It's been lost under obligations to others and under layers of excess weight. I want to find out who "she" is and what "she" really wants with her life (meaning myself). My children will go on with their lives--I need a life of my own without identifing myself vicariously through someone else.
 
I've often wondered... if we could see ourselves as others see us, would we like the person we are? If I could somehow sit on a park bench and watch Frankie Featherfingers live life, what would I think of him? I'm not happy with myself for dropping out of college... but would I have found Reflexology if I hadn't? If I had stayed in the Navy longer than I did, would I be a different person today? Personally, I like the person I am now. Facing life's challenges is scary... this choice or that... Kis, I like the person I see when I read your posts. You're real. Steph and Giantfan are, too. I'm not sure what my point is, but sometimes I get so deep I begin swallowing dirt.
 
I believe that God brings us where He wants us to be. Sometimes, He has something so special that He has to bring us via dragging us to where He desires us to be. I had my own so-called ideas as to what I wanted to do. Many years later, I am beginning to believe that He has me just where He wants me to go. I have fought God for years becuase I had my ideas as to where my life should be. I was definitely wrong! I just have to hang out and find out where the end is going to be. Until then, I'm just supposed to live as best as possible. What a deal!!!!!!!!!🙂
 
My wieght loss (the original subject of this thread LOL), 58 lbs to date, has made me much happier with myself. As I mentioned, I battled weight almost my whole life and as a kids was ridiculed relentlessly. At that age, I can tell you that didn't bode very well for building self esteem. I went through years of therapy, as I mentioned earlier in this thread, to become happy with who I was.

I look back on some of the choices that I made and second guess myself from time to time. One thing is that I wished did was stick out Karate till I got my black belt. That is a special accomplishment. When I think back, it would have helped me in sports. I am trying to do that with my son bcause I don't want him to make the same mistake I made. There are other things I reflect upon, but that is one that sticks in my mind the most.

Overall, I like who I am now. I'm a good father (at least I like to think so), earn a good living, and overall a generous person, who tries to do the right thing (I don't always, but I try) and a good friend (so I am told). I know I proved to myself that you can accomplish anything if you put your mind to it. Losing weight at 40 is no picnic. When I was in my teens, that was one probably the only time in my life I didn't worry about my weight b/c I was so active

Kis, I applaud your efforts to improve yourself. It takes a great deal of maturity to look yourself in the mirror and realize that there are things you need to change. You faced it head on. From what I have read in your posts be4 this thread is that you are strong and have a good sense of what is right and wrong. The completion of your education and the weight loss is icing on the cake. I bet you feel 10X better about yourself.

Frankie, I am glad to see that after all the thinking you have done you can also like yourself as well. There is so much negativity which raises self doubt hence it can cloud your self image so easily.

Steph, also, with her struggles has become the person she is, which is someone that I can admire and would like to get to know better. Look at what she does for a living. How cool is that? If God makes choices on who does what, he made the RIGHT choice in that respect.
 
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You certainly thought up one hell of a thread. We're all benefitting from it. Kis has sure made some changes. You've done a great service here, my man!
 
featherfingers said:
You certainly thought up one hell of a thread. We're all benefitting from it. Kis has sure made some changes. You've done a great service here, my man!
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Thanks again. I don't get tired of hearing this. With all the negative stuff posted here, it's good to have something positive. I didn't intend for the thread to take off the way it did, but nonetheless, I'm glad it did.
 
Bad news, good news..........


Bad news first--I am not doing very well in my accounting class. I should be happy to live with a "c" in this class. I've busted my butt for a higher grade, but I may have to settle for what is in front of me.

Good news.....

I have two job interviews next week! I hope this is good news......I'll let you in on it soon.....Have a good night.....🙂 😀
 
How are you doing in your other classes? I mean, in the general scheme of things, am I correct to think that a "c" won't affect your overall GPA? Imean, it's only one class

AFA the interviews, knock their socks off!!
 
giantfan121262 said:
How are you doing in your other classes? I mean, in the general scheme of things, am I correct to think that a "c" won't affect your overall GPA? Imean, it's only one class

AFA the interviews, knock their socks off!!
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This is the last class I will make a grade in. I have one additional class, but that's the class where I'm getting a "c". The other class will be on a pass/fail basis.

Right now, I have a 3.7 gpa. My honors classes are at 3.2. I'm hoping that I'll make it. The "c" grade can make or break me in the honors classes, where I'm at a mere 3.2. I hope I can get it done. I want all of the stuff I can get!!!
 
giantfan121262 said:
You're doing great!!
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Kis, I agree with Giantfan. Keep up the good work and focus on the positives. A "C" may not hurt your GPA in the long run.
Congrats on the job interviews! Wear your best outfit but most importantly, wear a smile! (I know that sounds hoky, but it sure beats a scowl). Those interviewers will love you. Don't be intimidated... If they are men, just say to yourself, "These guys are actually Giantfan and Featherfingers at TMF." If they're women, imagine they're Steph and Iluv2Btickled. Good luck and God Bless!
 
I just checked my email and saw another possible job interview. I get the feeling that this is not the kind of job environment I want to work in. Something about the way the ad was written makes me wonder..... I'm going to call them anyway because I could be wrong and I'm pursuing every opportunity. There may be Christmas at my house after all!!!

This weekend, I'm going to try to buy an interview suit. I need work clothes really bad. Even though I've lost some weight, I still cannot wear my old clothes. Not having to wear work clothes for about a year and sitting around the house eating will do that to a person.

My daughter injured herself Weds. Something about pulling a "quad" (you athletes and anatomy professions can help me with this one). I think she pulled something in her groin area (sorry for the graphics). So she can still work out, but has to rehab slowly. She'll come and work out with me this weekend. She has never been injured before--I'm told that this is not a major injury.
The mom in me doesn't agree at all!😡 She's also competing for the starting position on her varsity team. Talk about lousy timing?:Grrr: :Grrr:

I joined YMCA yesterday. I really loved my rec center, but the Y has better equipment and more stuff to do like aquasize and cardio kickboxing (that's gonna be awhile down the road). The price was less and the hours are longer than the rec center too. I just hope the people are as nice and the lines aren't long. I'll miss the Seniors I used to work out with. This is a younger crowd and there's a gym my daugher can pick up basketball games with. If things don't work out, I can always go back to the rec center. By winter, I may pop some videos in the vcr and go from there. Who wants to go out in the snow just to exercise?

Well, I'm going to hang out for awhile, and go back to bed. I've been really having a rough time sleeping lately. I'll be glad when I'm done with school. I hope the "c" won't hurt my honors gpa. I just don't get accounting at all! That's why you hire the accountant instead of being the accountant.

Have a good day folks!🙂 🙂
 
Quadruceps (sp)... a muscle... it's been a while since I worked out in any organized fashion, so I don't want to say something specific and be inaccurate, but I -think- it's a thigh muscle *blushes embarrassedly* I really ought to know this... I've just never really paid attention to the terminology, I usually work out at home alone.

I've pulled other muscles myself... It's a pain in the butt, no pun intended, but it's not a major injury 🙂. The only long-term effect I'm aware of is that, if she pulled it particularly badly, she might be prone to a reoccurence if she over-exerts herself in that area again, at least for a little while after she's otherwise recovered and back to normal.

I hope that helps a little with peace of mind? Congratulations on your progress with your degree. A "C" in one subject or not, an honors GPA is nothing to sniff at, particularly when you've got other obligations besides college. I wish you the best of luck on your interviews.
 
Thanks for the info, and I know she'll be alright. Just the mom in me hates to see my kid suffer. The timing couldn't be worse since she's on a new team at a new school. She's a junior so this is really the year she has to get noticed. Mom and dad didn't exactly save for college so she's going for the scholarship. She's already working on SAT's. I took the ACT so I have no idea how difficult the test is. She has a lot on her plate this year with only basketball season to look forward to--and now this??

She says she doesn't want to talk about it, she just wants to rehab and not get worried about the other stuff. She probably has more sense than her 'ol mom about this, so I'm playing the silent supportive role.

I haven't interviewed in awhile so I'm a little rusty. It's taken months to even get these employers to respond to my resumes. One interview is a phone interview so that should be okay. The other job is one I interviewed for about a year ago. They picked someone else and later fired him. I feel sorry for him because they should've hired me in the first place. I think it was the weight thing. Oh well! I don't know if I even want the job anymore but if they offer it to me I just may take it until I establish a decent work history. By then I may have saved enough money to work on my own dreams.
 
Giantfan, aren't you aware of the perks that come with each new level? No? Me, neither. Do we get an autographed photo of our favorite TMF'er's feet, at least? I choose Steph's!
 
featherfingers said:
Giantfan, aren't you aware of the perks that come with each new level? No? Me, neither. Do we get an autographed photo of our favorite TMF'er's feet, at least? I choose Steph's!
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Hey, that was MY choice!
 
Psssssssssssssssssssssssssh, you guys! 🙂

XOXO
 
Steph, we've got to help Giantfan get his red feather! He's almost there! Giantfan, where are you, man?
 
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