I wish there was more to my life (Please don't read if you don't like sad threads)

[Butterfly wings]

For the past few months (since last July really) My life has been on so many roller coaster rides. I have been happy and sad and depressed and back up to happy again. So many things have gone on in my life.

I am really not the type of person to share my feelings and pour out my life burdens onto other people or even my parents. I would much rather have other people be happy in life first then myself be happy. I would rather be happy second. I guess you could say i'm the type of person that holds things inside of me and does not let them out or share.

But since Jennifer has come into my life i have been working alot better at getting my feelings out with her help. She has helped me a great deal. And it is getting better. I can see alot more improvement in me.

But i still feel as though i need some more excitement or something to just get out there and spread my wings and fly some. And see things. All my friends that i used to be friends with in high school have moved to other far away states. I still don't drive yet. And my both parents are ok with me living with them still at the age of 22 years old 🙁 (they are loving kind parents what can i say).

And not to mention MY older brother Dan (much older then me) MIGHT be move down here in April if everything works out back in the state where he is because he hates his job and wants out for good. And on top of all that my older brother Dan is addicited to sleeping pills me and my parents found out he takes like 5 to 6 sleeping pills each night to help him get to sleep. And he has a really bad temper as well.

But right now i can't just leave because for the sake of my parents it was thier idea to bring me to see Jennifer in July and it was there idea to take me. So i can't just leave them hanging and abandon my parents. That would hurt not only me if i did that but it would also hurt both my parents and Jennifer as well. And with my older brother coming to live with us i can't just take off and split right now even if i wanted to.

So i guess in a way this is just more of a vent thread and to just let stuff out and being able to clear my head at times. I don't really need any advice. This is just a way for me to let all kinds of things out and to get out my thoughts.

Thanks.

 

[Aachen1983]

man

I still live with my Mom and step-Dad at the age of 22. I also crave exitement. I know where you are coming from.

 

[kis123]

Well if your intention was to just vent, this is the place to do it! I'd rather read something like this than some of the crap I've seen others bellyache about.

Maybe you're just in a "funk" right now and don't know what direction to take next. Maybe you are generally depressed and would need someone professional to speak with. There are medications that can help you get to the next level as well.

BTW, I didn't get my drivers license until I was almost 22-don't sweat that one. If there's no handicapping reason to hinder you getting one, maybe you should focus on obtaining your license. There is something very freeing (if that's a word) about being able to drive yourself where you want to go. It'll take you mind off some of the stuff you've been thinking about.

I hope this helps.

 

[Sultrybrunette]

I would say at your age its very normal to want to expand your horizons and I am sure there is much frustration because you can't right now. Like Kis said, concentrate on getting your license. Driving is a freedom that is amazing. Even if you go to the next town, it gets you away from whats going on at home and gives you a chance to clear your head. Believe me, your talking the queen of depression...there are lots of times when I wish I could just get in my car and take off for a few hours. Hang in there.

 

[Sacrifice]

For the past few months (since last July really) My life has been on so many roller coaster rides. I have been happy and sad and depressed and back up to happy again. So many things have gone on in my life.

I am really not the type of person to share my feelings and pour out my life burdens onto other people or even my parents. I would much rather have other people be happy in life first then myself be happy. I would rather be happy second. I guess you could say i'm the type of person that holds things inside of me and does not let them out or share.

But since Jennifer has come into my life i have been working alot better at getting my feelings out with her help. She has helped me a great deal. And it is getting better. I can see alot more improvement in me.

But i still feel as though i need some more excitement or something to just get out there and spread my wings and fly some. And see things. All my friends that i used to be friends with in high school have moved to other far away states. I still don't drive yet. And my both parents are ok with me living with them still at the age of 22 years old 🙁 (they are loving kind parents what can i say).

And not to mention MY older brother Dan (much older then me) MIGHT be move down here in April if everything works out back in the state where he is because he hates his job and wants out for good. And on top of all that my older brother Dan is addicited to sleeping pills me and my parents found out he takes like 5 to 6 sleeping pills each night to help him get to sleep. And he has a really bad temper as well.

But right now i can't just leave because for the sake of my parents it was thier idea to bring me to see Jennifer in July and it was there idea to take me. So i can't just leave them hanging and abandon my parents. That would hurt not only me if i did that but it would also hurt both my parents and Jennifer as well. And with my older brother coming to live with us i can't just take off and split right now even if i wanted to.

So i guess in a way this is just more of a vent thread and to just let stuff out and being able to clear my head at times. I don't really need any advice. This is just a way for me to let all kinds of things out and to get out my thoughts.

Thanks.

Read my sig. It happened after I chased her for 17 years since high school. Now im going to be married and a stepfather. Things have a way of balancing out so hang on ok? I know its hard but you have to!!

 

[tickletim]

Dude, I lived at home with my parents until I got married at the age of 27. Both of my brothers did the same thing, lived at home until they got married in their late 20's as well. I think the first thing you have to do is get your license. It helps to have it when you want to visit other places that aren't necessarily far enough away for a plane ride.

Just to let you know, just because you get older doesn't necessarily mean that life gets better automatically. It still has it's ups and downs. I am 35 years old, working 2 jobs and trying to raise my 3 kids along with my wife. We just lost my 16 year old cousin this past year in October. We had problems with my house right before he died after 11 days of straight rain. I'm not trying to bring you further down. I'm just trying to show you that we all have problems, every one of us. What's good is that there are people who care, here and everywhere. Just hang in there. Life will get better for you, but you have to help it along the same way we all have to. I wish you the best of luck. Everything happes for a reason and, being a religious man I feel comfortable telling you this, God has a plan for all of us. When things aren't looking good in my life, I say a prayer and ask God to help get me through it, even when my cousin died. I feel most comfortable talking to a priest. They listen and aren't trying to "cure" you from whatever it says on page 35 in their textbook. You may want to give that a shot. Whatever your religious background is, it may help you to sit and discuss this in that fashion. Whatever you decide, I do wish you the best of luck.

 

[tickletim]

Dude, I lived at home with my parents until I got married at the age of 27. Both of my brothers did the same thing, lived at home until they got married in their late 20's as well. I think the first thing you have to do is get your license. It helps to have it when you want to visit other places that aren't necessarily far enough away for a plane ride.

Just to let you know, just because you get older doesn't necessarily mean that life gets better automatically. It still has it's ups and downs. I am 35 years old, working 2 jobs and trying to raise my 3 kids along with my wife. We just lost my 16 year old cousin this past year in October. We had problems with my house right before he died after 11 days of straight rain. I'm not trying to bring you further down. I'm just trying to show you that we all have problems, every one of us. What's good is that there are people who care, here and everywhere. Just hang in there. Life will get better for you, but you have to help it along the same way we all have to. I wish you the best of luck. Everything happes for a reason and, being a religious man I feel comfortable telling you this, God has a plan for all of us. When things aren't looking good in my life, I say a prayer and ask God to help get me through it, even when my cousin died. I feel most comfortable talking to a priest. They listen and aren't trying to "cure" you from whatever it says on page 35 in their textbook. You may want to give that a shot. Whatever your religious background is, it may help you to sit and discuss this in that fashion. Whatever you decide, I do wish you the best of luck.

 

[steph]

Sweetie~You're young and such a sensitive soul. As someone almost twice your age (and who defected from a hellish household when I went to University at 17,) I found that at least for me, things got a LOT better the older I got. You get to call your own shots, see? Work, paying bills and taxes is inevitable but all the rest of it is up to you. Independence makes you strong and after awhile it becomes a little like a drug, but the really good kind!

I know you didn't ask for advice but FWIW, I'd start out small (get your license!) and stick around at least long enough to get together with Jen. Your wonderful folks, I'm sure, have prepared themselves for the fact that you'll move on evnetually, BTW.

And don't worry about the vent~this place is awesome for that. So many wise ones on this forum!
XOXO

 

[Hiryu]

"I wish there was more to my life."

Try to make it work. I wish mine had never been.

You on the other hand are still very young. You have time to fix it before it breaks completely. No one else cares enough to help. You're going to have to do it on your own. I wish I had known and excepted that at your age. If so, I wouldn't be typing this right now. The truth is that being a human being sucks. All you can do is look out for #1.

 

[steph]

That makes me sad hon...
XOXO

"I wish there was more to my life."

Try to make it work. I wish mine had never been.

You on the other hand are still very young. You have time to fix it before it breaks completely. No one else cares enough to help. You're going to have to do it on your own. I wish I had known and excepted that at your age. If so, I wouldn't be typing this right now. The truth is that being a human being sucks. All you can do is look out for #1.

 

[Butterfly wings]

Thanks to everyone that has helped me out and gave me some sound advice (even though i really was not asking for it).

But i have gave it some long after thought and decided to put my number goal at least a good reachable goal is to get my license. And i have already been trying to reach that goal and get it several times now. It just has not stuck yet. But i will keep on reaching for the goal of mine until i succeed and start driving.

But until that goal of mine comes through. I will just try to be a helpful son as the best i can here at the house and do my duties here with my parents and help out. Until July when i go and see Jennifer.


PS. Oh and to Aachen1983 i feel your pain man. Since you and me are in the same boat kind of. Hang in there.


🙂

Venting is good.

 

[Aachen1983]

Hell yeah man. I also didn't get my license until I was 20 years old. I didn't have strong enough glasses up to that point.

 

[kered]

I wish there was more to my life

You are a good kid. Get that license and you will feel more confident. Remember that most of us felt the same way at twenty-two and this will pass,in time. You'll be OK.