I have been married to my wife for almost 15 years now. When we first got together, she was a bit more adventurous. I was up front with my foot and tickling fetish and she was accepting of it, even letting me tie her up once. As the years have passed, she continues to be accepting of my interest in her feet and indulges me in most areas, save for one. She's never really enjoyed being tickled, but would indulge me by letting me tickle her feet briefly from time to time. The past few years, however, she shuts it down immediately. There are times during a massage, or when I'm licking her soles or sucking her toes that I tickle her by accident. Her feet flinch, but there's no laughter. Of course I don't force the issue and respect her boundaries, but it still makes me sad at times that I can't be intimate with her in that way. I'm mostly a Ler, but also enjoy being a Lee. However, unless it's reciprocal, I don't enjoy being tickled. In the past, I have put up with her tickling me when she seems in the mood to do so, thinking that I might build up some "tickling credits," but have found it doesn't work like that. I have almost come to the decision that I need to shut down any instances of her tickling me as it makes me uncomfortable being in a Lee position, if I can't be a Ler as well. Sucks, but that's where I'm at. I don't really like having to resort to tickle porn to scratch that itch, but it is what it is. She would never be okay with me indulging my tickling fetish with another female, so that's off the table. I'm working up to having a convo with her about it. I think I could deal with leaving tickling in the fantasy realm if she truely dislikes it to that degree now, but she will have to be careful of never having her feet in a position to be tickled by someone else (no matter how innocently they see it) because I'm not sure how I would handle that. Even thinking about that happening drives me to the point of rage that scares me. At least I still get to enjoy her feet in other ways, I suppose.