Dear Jpie,
It is always hard to lose a loved one, especially at this time of year. I lost my last living relative, my brother, on Christmas Eve, 2002. I know the feelings your having right now. As I said, my entire immediate family is gone.
But always remember that some day there will be a grand reunion with you and your mom.
I don't know what was wrong with your mom, but now she is painfree and at peace. Try and take a little comfort in this fact. I know it will be hard.
Try to remember the fun and happy things you and your mom shared, and it will be a little easier.
That's what I did about my brother, I remembered all the nights we spent at the races. He had a 55 Chevy that we both worked on and raced. We had a lot of good times.
With care and love,
Hootus