I guess my reason for writing this is to see if there are any others who feel or have felt the same way I do.
Although I'm currently attending college at a large university in the Midwest, I was raised in a conservative household deep within the Bible Belt, and although I am not particularly religious, I do have fairly strong moral values. I consider myself very unlucky to have developed a fetish for tickling. I would like to describe a few dilemmas that I've experienced because of it.
I would imagine tickling is inconsequential to most people, but to me, it's a very intimate act with a quasi-sexual undertone. Because of this, I very rarely tickle people, even when the opportunity clearly presents itself, and when I do, I often feel guilty afterwards. Even a casual poke in the ribs can be an obscenity under some circumstances. On the other hand, whenever I see people tickling or being tickled (e.g. - my friends), I have to work hard to ignore it and supress the feeling of jealousy that arises.
I've never outright told anyone that I have a fetish for tickling; I feel that doing so may be disastrous. Alternative lifestyles each have their own little stigmas. I think that if people know you have a fetish for tickling, those who are understanding will go out of their way to make sure they never facilitate any sort of tickling while in your presence. I can only imagine what the less-understanding people might do. Someone who's caught reading through a Playboy magazine is much more easily understood than one who reads an article or looks at pictures of people being tickled.
Even by my own standards, I'm not a saint. In virtually all of my past relationships, I've taken guilty pleasure in tickling my significant other (and in being tickled) - casually of course. Few if any have ever guessed that tickling means something different to me than it does to them. (I did have one close call in which one of my girlfriends found a tickling video folder through Winamp. I managed to convince her that it was a folder "some sicko" had given me to look at, and that I simply hadn't deleted it yet.)
I really don't know where I'd intended to go with this post. I'd lurked on the forums a bit, reading through some of the stories and seeing what others have had to say, but I've never gotten the impression that there are others who feel the same way about tickling as I do. It amazes me that many of you are so open about it (even if just on the internet), and I hope to gain some insights from you.
Although I'm currently attending college at a large university in the Midwest, I was raised in a conservative household deep within the Bible Belt, and although I am not particularly religious, I do have fairly strong moral values. I consider myself very unlucky to have developed a fetish for tickling. I would like to describe a few dilemmas that I've experienced because of it.
I would imagine tickling is inconsequential to most people, but to me, it's a very intimate act with a quasi-sexual undertone. Because of this, I very rarely tickle people, even when the opportunity clearly presents itself, and when I do, I often feel guilty afterwards. Even a casual poke in the ribs can be an obscenity under some circumstances. On the other hand, whenever I see people tickling or being tickled (e.g. - my friends), I have to work hard to ignore it and supress the feeling of jealousy that arises.
I've never outright told anyone that I have a fetish for tickling; I feel that doing so may be disastrous. Alternative lifestyles each have their own little stigmas. I think that if people know you have a fetish for tickling, those who are understanding will go out of their way to make sure they never facilitate any sort of tickling while in your presence. I can only imagine what the less-understanding people might do. Someone who's caught reading through a Playboy magazine is much more easily understood than one who reads an article or looks at pictures of people being tickled.
Even by my own standards, I'm not a saint. In virtually all of my past relationships, I've taken guilty pleasure in tickling my significant other (and in being tickled) - casually of course. Few if any have ever guessed that tickling means something different to me than it does to them. (I did have one close call in which one of my girlfriends found a tickling video folder through Winamp. I managed to convince her that it was a folder "some sicko" had given me to look at, and that I simply hadn't deleted it yet.)
I really don't know where I'd intended to go with this post. I'd lurked on the forums a bit, reading through some of the stories and seeing what others have had to say, but I've never gotten the impression that there are others who feel the same way about tickling as I do. It amazes me that many of you are so open about it (even if just on the internet), and I hope to gain some insights from you.
