Moving on, liquid courage, and your suck voice
tulipangel said:
The getting drunk part before I speak to him is a good Idea! Maybe since I was planing on TALKING to him tonight about it, I can toss a few back and loosen up a bit! Not drunk to the point that I cant get to the potty with out help but tipsy! liquid courage! Good idea! I am going to get to the bottom of this! I will either show him "the way" or I will find someone who wants to tickle me no strings attached. Either way, as selfish as it sounds I will get tickled till i scream either by his fingers or someone elses 🙂
Off topic here a moment... do NOT go down the liquid courage path. It's a bad idea in the long run and will lead only to disaster. In the brief time I took stand up classes our teacher explained that we should NEVER use something to "loosen up" like drugs or alcohol. Eventually you become dependent on something else to supress your "suck voice." Look at Richard Pryor and Robin Wlliams who in their later careers did whole segments on their drug and alcohol abuse. All of that was to supress their suck voice.
The suck voice is the voice in your head that says "you can't do that, you suck!"
If you want advice on handling that suck voice minus artificial courage I will be happy to forward it to you. It is NOT easy, but its better than the other means.
Personally I dated someone who I thought was into similar things. I had posted nothing explicit in my online personal advertisement but gave enough info there to filter out most people.
I thought she got turned on and was interested in tickling but I later learned it wasn't to the same degree I was. It did make me realize something about my interest in it that I will share in another post. I did offer to show her this site but she wasn't interested.
Spanking is less about control probably than asphyxia or tickling (in my experience with spanking and tickling). The latter two involve more of a loss of control for the bottom. It is possible that your boyfriend has a problem mentally with you having no control, and him having total control in these situations.
Also letting someone run free reign on this site is not always a good introduction. Most of us are fairly good people but I'll be honest I've seen freaky posts that do not represent the community as a whole which may give the wrong image. A guided tour would be better if someone is willing and you are trying to get them introduced to things.
If talking and slow exploration does not work and you cannot see another person for your needs you will need to move on rather than live lies or be unhappy. You've seen the posts here from people in relationships where they are not getting what they want, you know what it will do to you. My last relationship was much this way. We had many things in common but some of the things she wanted I could not bring myself to do. It wasn't in my nature, try as I might. In the end it is one of the main factors in our break up. Thankfully we are still friends and I can occasionally play with her.
So no more liquid courage or I'll tell everyone here not to tickle you again
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