Thanks for all the kind words, appreicate it.
Ignore all spelling in this post, I'm not done crying hysterically yet, will take a fewmonths for that.(trying my best sopeople can understand what im fucking syaing..... )
basically, she needs her space, and her only solution was that we date, but only on her shcedule, so she said, if i date you today, i might not call you for a week. that shit doesnt fly in a new relaitonship most of the time, but after living together for a year? fucking games man
i told her to take care of all our little ones (13 rats, little pug pugsley, 2 great cats), and if she EVER wants to be with me all the way, not some half ass attempt at it, to call me, and ill be here.
i honestly want her to be happy, and as such, i am letting her go, and starting over from scratch.
this time artound, ill be who i am,not the asshole you saw on here the whole time
im going to give my fucking heart like i used to because i havbe learned alot from this, and heres the mopst important thing:
you can be a heartless bastard to anybody you want for years and years, but when somethinglike this happens, anything youve taught yourself not to feel will shatter, and you will come out.
me right now is a shriveling, whimpering, crying pile of misery. i already went to the docs, got some zanex, or whatevr the fuck its called.
i need help to get my head on straight and now is the fucking time to do it.
513-722-6589
thats my fucking number. cvall it. anybody.
leo