Two of the people I met through here specifically. Really odd and rough to think about what just a little bit of space can do to someone who is left to linger.
I had quasi-dreams turned nightmares the last two nights involving one. Last night was wrought with a dry symbolism that I don't think I can ever forget. Yesterday morning I just wanted...
I know what I wanted.
You know that thing you want but you can't have? That's been twenty-five years of my life. And I can make all the excuses in the world, and I figure this won't get read, but the fact is that I got so fucking close to just getting in my car yesterday morning and making the trip back home.
Thinking about this makes me very upset. This will soon be relegated to the background of a numb emptiness of emotion. Complacency will follow, and tomorrow will be another day with all the potential squeezed out of it.
I've grown comfortable in my habits and with peripheral objects which currently make things tolerable. But the more I ponder on it, the more I realize that the line is being bent to a breaking point.
Depending on outcomes I cannot control, tomorrow might just be the day the string snaps.
I had quasi-dreams turned nightmares the last two nights involving one. Last night was wrought with a dry symbolism that I don't think I can ever forget. Yesterday morning I just wanted...
I know what I wanted.
You know that thing you want but you can't have? That's been twenty-five years of my life. And I can make all the excuses in the world, and I figure this won't get read, but the fact is that I got so fucking close to just getting in my car yesterday morning and making the trip back home.
Thinking about this makes me very upset. This will soon be relegated to the background of a numb emptiness of emotion. Complacency will follow, and tomorrow will be another day with all the potential squeezed out of it.
I've grown comfortable in my habits and with peripheral objects which currently make things tolerable. But the more I ponder on it, the more I realize that the line is being bent to a breaking point.
Depending on outcomes I cannot control, tomorrow might just be the day the string snaps.
