I have it all but suicide is always a constant thought.

[ads26]

Time to move on

All good now.Cheers All. X

 

[Bugman]

As the title suggests, I don't have a bad life but it seems it's not enough. I have a nice home and great friends, a job that is varied and demanding. It's when I get home and stare at screen, seemingly surrounded by people of a similar frame of mind, but feeling very much alone and isolated. Is it because people seem so close, yet worlds and continents away that makes your reality all the more hard to bare?

If you ever have serious thoughs about hurting yourself or worse, and have no one to talk to, please call the number here.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

It's a great resource. They are there to help and won't judge you in any way. Don't apply a permanent solution to what is a temporary problem. I wish you all the best.

 

[Leo tickles]

You sound more lonely than suicidal to me. :-/

 

[Interrogator]

I shouldnn't say what I think, it may be unhelpful...

 

[TropicThunder]

Just because you seem to have it all doesn't chase away those bad thoughts.

Please PM me if you'd like to talk. I'm a good listener.

 

[Cuige Uladh]

Well, I outed myself in the chat room about a week ago, so why not here as well? I have Bipolar Disorder. I was diagnosed as a teenager. I have attempted suicide before, and, thank Jesus, lived. I still struggle, even on meds, with severe depression and the occasional suicidal thoughts. It doesn't help that I feel like a man without a country, a stranger in a strange land.

Have you ever been diagnosed with anything? Bugman's link is quite a good one, check it out. Talking about it helps. When I went to hang myself years ago, I never told anyone what I felt, and people couldn't believe that I tried it. I had to play "catch-up" after it as I had sold quite a deal of things and gave other items away, I didn't think I'd ever need them again.

But mate, it gets better. I know that now, and you will too.

 

[Bugman]

Well, I outed myself in the chat room about a week ago, so why not here as well? I have Bipolar Disorder. I was diagnosed as a teenager. I have attempted suicide before, and, thank Jesus, lived. I still struggle, even on meds, with severe depression and the occasional suicidal thoughts. It doesn't help that I feel like a man without a country, a stranger in a strange land.

I applaud you for speaking up, it's not an easy thing to do. I know, believe me, having wrestled with depression much of my life.

Have you ever been diagnosed with anything? Bugmans link is quite a good one, check it out. Talking about it helps. When I went to hang myself years ago, I never told anyone what I felt, and people couldn't believe that I tried it. I had to play "catch-up" after it as I had sold quite a deal of things and gave other items away, I didn't think I'd ever need them again.

Sadly, I knew a guy years ago who followed through. His wife came home one day and found him hanging in the bedroom closet. No one had any idea it had gotten to that point.

But mate, it gets better. I know that now, and you will too.

This.

 

[AmandaBear]

You say you have good friends and a nice family, yet feel so lonely...what I'd suggest doing is setting goals for the future. Short-term and long-term goals give us something to live for and I think typing them out and saving them to a Word document would work wonders for you. Maybe you can save up money and try to make it to NEST one year, too? That way, you can actually meet some of the people of the forum and they'd seem more real to you (plus, if the stories are true you'll have a lot of fun). ^^
And sometimes feelings of loneliness and isolation also has to do with the chemicals in our brain. I'd suggest taking Vitamin D supplements over the course of several months. Vitamin D is the one vitamin that helps fight stress and, well...make you happier. You might also wanna try a bit of exercise if you haven't been getting enough. Most people say that moving around makes them feel more alive and also gets the blood flowing to the brain...not to mention the release of endorphins, aka the "happy" hormones. 😉

 

[venray]

You have reached out. That is the way to go. You will find many who have had these thoughts at one time or another here...

Myself included. Depresion is an evil thing that robs us of the good things we have in life...but only if we let it...

PM me...or others here who have said the same...It helps to talk to others who have had similar demons to deal with....

Ray

 

[ads26]

Thank you all. I'm very touched and feel a little foolish. I find that I can go weeks or months and feel great. Like I said I don't have a bad life and there are those who have far worse problems than me. I am a fun person who loves a laugh, I go out with friends and do varied things, I can walk about the town and I'll usually see someone I know. For me it's a struggle to understand. When you sit down and think it doesn't make sense. I have thought about how I might do it and I worry that it will hurt or someone has to find me. I know that I could not do it. I have a real fear of death. The problem I face is why do I sometimes feel this way?
I don't want to seem alarmist or be perceived as attention grabbing, I'm just struggling to find an answer.
Bugman, thank you for the link. I had a brief look and will be returning later.
Leo, you're probably right.
Interrogater, I respect your honesty.
Tropic Thunder, it is a very noble gesture and one I appreciate deeply. Thank you.
Cuige, you sum up what I said earlier. You have faced far worse Demons than I and come through the other side. You are an inspiration and I admire your candid and honest response. All the best.
Bugman, I agree.
AmandaBear, I shall do as you suggest. The cross trainer looks like an expensive clothes hoarse and the weights have a layer of dust on them.
Venray, You are a gent with a kind heart.
Kindest Regards Adam.

 

[Lord Doctor]

I think a lot of people feel this way and bluntly, I think it's because we're taught from an early age - in a subtle way at least - that wanting and having things is "bad and sinful" (take that as a large simplification, but certainly I think this is the cause of my own generally low feeling). We may not consciously believe it, but unconsciously it's there, and it may surface as depression.

If you're feeling that low, then do see the quacks. I've been there, from the opposite end of the spectrum, from broken heart, to lack of sleep. It can get better with the right help, which is worth taking the time to find.

Try no to suppress those positive thoughts and feelings that you do have 🙂

 

[Dave Pavet]

(1)... You didn't do it yet so that's a good thing... (2) see somebody (3) That should take care of it !

 

[texastickler]

As the title suggests, I don't have a bad life but it seems it's not enough. I have a nice home and great friends, a job that is varied and demanding. It's when I get home and stare at screen, seemingly surrounded by people of a similar frame of mind, but feeling very much alone and isolated. Is it because people seem so close, yet worlds and continents away that makes your reality all the more hard to bare?

It helps to talk these things through my friend! Life can be a downer at times but there are many wonderful things to look forward too! If you ever need to talk, send me a PM! I, like so many others here are there for you! We can chat on yahoo or whatever! Do not let something like suicide be an option!

 

[texastickler]

Let me share this with you!

 

[Mitchell]

ads, I'm sorry to hear about how you are feeling.

My thought, and I'm saying this with utmost sincerity, would be that perhaps you need to talk to a professional couneslor or psychologist. I was in therapy for many years, and I found that sometimes pouring out feelings to, and seeking advice from, an impartial party, who is not a family member, or friend, was helpful in dealing with problems. I'm sure there must have been times I felt suicidal in my life, but I'm one who was/is afraid of death, so it's unlikely I would have tried it. Also, I heard many times the old addage in school, and from my psychologists, of "Don't do it, suicide is a permanent solution to what is often a temporary problem". The couneslors would often discuss how painful it would be for our friends, and loved ones, if we did take our lives. Such advice, and thoughts, got me through the difficult times.

Good Luck. I hope you are able to find the right path to help you in overcoming these feelings.

Mitch

 

[Bugman]

Thank you all. I'm very touched and feel a little foolish. I find that I can go weeks or months and feel great. Like I said I don't have a bad life and there are those who have far worse problems than me. I am a fun person who loves a laugh, I go out with friends and do varied things, I can walk about the town and I'll usually see someone I know. For me it's a struggle to understand. When you sit down and think it doesn't make sense. I have thought about how I might do it and I worry that it will hurt or someone has to find me. I know that I could not do it. I have a real fear of death. The problem I face is why do I sometimes feel this way?
I don't want to seem alarmist or be perceived as attention grabbing, I'm just struggling to find an answer.
Bugman, thank you for the link. I had a brief look and will be returning later.
Leo, you're probably right.
Interrogator, I respect your honesty.
TropicThunder, it is a very noble gesture and one I appreciate deeply. Thank you.
Cuige, you sum up what I said earlier. You have faced far worse Demons than I and come through the other side. You are an inspiration and I admire your candid and honest response. All the best.
Bugman, I agree.
AmandaBear, I shall do as you suggest. The cross trainer looks like an expensive clothes hoarse and the weights have a layer of dust on them.
Venray, You are a gent with a kind heart.
Kindest Regards Adam.

Ads, please don't ever feel foolish about reaching out. I, like you, can often go for weeks or months feeling fine. Then, I get hit with a ton of bricks for no discernible reason. And it can feel like the life is being crushed right out of me.
I'm glad you found the link usefull. And you are always welcome to pm me anytime. 🙂

 

[TangerineTicklee]

Suicide is constantly on my mind as well. Never leaves. You're definitely not alone.

 

[Lost_My_Mind]

Sometimes depression is the result of a void in ones life. Other times its the result of guilt. There are many reasons why you can feel depressed, so I wont type them all here, but instead give some of the common reasons.

1) You feel fulfilled and surrounded by great people, but maybe you still have a void in your life. Oftentimes its the lack of a love interest. Try hitting up the bars, or a dating site.....whatever method suits your style of dating.

2) Maybe you have too much and subconsciously you feel the world has given you a lot, but you've given nothing back. Maybe try the big brother program. Oftentimes taking a role for someone makes that individual happy to know he/she is there for someone.

3) Maybe a chemical imbalance. You may have medical depression that no actions on your part will change. You'll have to see a doctor and see which prescriptions help.

4) Smoke some pot. No, seriously. I used to be 16 with no job, no money, nothing going on in my life, no friends except a pothead. So I went to his house, and he always wanted someone to smoke with. What I noticed is I stopped feeling so sad (even when not high) just from pot alone. It IS still illegal, so......watch out.

5) Boredom. Your in a rut. Your doing the same things day in, day out, nothing changes......your bored out of your mind. Try something new. Turn on the tv, and whatever they are doing, go out and try that..........just make sure its not something like die-hard where bruce willis is running from an exploding building or anything like that. Be reasonable, but don't discount things just because they aren't your thing. Never taken a pottery class? So what? Maybe horseback riding. Learning how to fire a weapon. Find a beat up car and enlist in a demolition derby. There are so many things in this world to do.


Uh.......yeah, thats about it.

 

[Knox The Hatter]

It's when I get home and stare at screen, seemingly surrounded by people of a similar frame of mind, but feeling very much alone and isolated. Is it because people seem so close, yet worlds and continents away that makes your reality all the more hard to bare?

Boy, can I relate to this!

I've had those dark thoughts too, at times. Feeling like no one would miss me, no one cares whether I live or die, so why not, but actually doing it and thinking it are two different things for me. It's never gotten bad enough that I've seriously considered this. I just have bad days now and then.

My inbox is open to you...lean on me.

 

[tickmankyle1]

i totally understand you been there and done that. I just try to go day by day and week by week. feel free to pm me if you need to talk. i have reached out here many times hugsssssss

 

[love feet]

Suicide is constantly on my mind as well. Never leaves. You're definitely not alone.

me to your not alone!!

 

[luvgirlsfeet]

It's been on my mind more times than i can remember. Sometimes I think that people in my life really wouldnt mind if i'm not around and with that certain amount of people being memeber of my so called ( extended ) family it's a constant thought. I have my share money/job troubles physical illnesses and a slight mental impairment and life to me is pointless if i'm not happy, i wasnt put on this earth to be in pain and emotionally stressed

 

[ads26]

I have taken all your advice and I´m sunning myself in Lanzarote. It´s a relaxing break from work and the phone. Can´t stay away from the TMF though!!
Take care all,
Lots of love
Adam.

 

[Bugman]

I have taken all your advice and I´m sunning myself in Lanzarote. It´s a relaxing break from work and the phone. Can´t stay away from the TMF though!!
Take care all,
Lots of love
Adam.

I'm glad you are feeling better Adam. 🙂