My News

[aun_existe_amor]

The news that my cancer has spread is not very good news but it's still news. I'll find out in 6 weeks if there is anything more they can do for me. I'm still having treatment until then but I don't know what will happen after. I'll have some big decisions to make.

The good news is that I've got over the moaning stage now. I don't feel sorry for myself anymore. I'm just noticing the more positive things in my life. I feel more sorry for the people I'll leave behind. My daughter, brother and sister will have to go into care homes. There is no one else to look after them. I feel sorry for Bob too. We are very happy with each other. He really is my soulmate. We haven't had long together but the two years we have spent together have been very happy. The happiest of my life.

I'm sure I'll be back soon, but if not, I just want to say to my friends here that I'm sorry we never met in person. There really are some very good kind people here. There are some bitches and arses too. Erm...... a few strange and weird ones also.

To my friends.......

Thank you for making me feel special and being there when I needed you. Thank you for noticing me and my words. We may not have met in person but you have been closest to me through reading my words on the screen you have known my thoughts. Very few people I know in person know as many of my thoughts as you do. It's much easier to be honest as "aun existe amor" than "Catherine". You got to know the real me 🙂

To the bitches and arses........

Yep, you made me upset, angry, and frustrated a few times. What goes around comes around. You'll always get what's coming to you. You are only showing how insecure and pathetic you are. I may have come close to the end of my life, and unfortunately it's taken me this long to realise that it matters more what I think of myself and what the people closest to me think than whether you think I'm a "freak", "fucking sybill", "closed minded", "fake female", "stupid", "pedophile" or "ignorant". I DON'T CARE!!! I've been called all these things and a lot more since I joined here. These people must have very sad lives to get enjoyment out of making other people feel bad. The ridiculous thing is that most of these things were said to me because I dared to post my opinion when I had a low postcount

To the strange and weird ones.....

I'm not pretending to be British. I really am British. My name is in Spanish but that doesn't mean that I'm not British. GOOD GRIEF!!!
No, I'm not male. GOOD GRIEF!!!
London is not the whole of England, there are other parts of England too. GOOD GRIEF!!!
No, I do not eat my own vomit, (or anyone elses). GOOD GRIEF!!!
Be happy, just don't be happy too close to anyone I care about. I'll be scared for them. GOOD GRIEF!!!

This isn't my last post. I'll be back

 

[RobAce]

aun.........

you and yours will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Your post brought a tear this hardass retired military man.
You are truly a beautiful human being which I can only hope will beat this and be around for many years to come.

Take care,
Robert

PS: This statement you wrote.......

The ridiculous thing is that most of these things were said to me because I dared to post my opinion when I had a low postcount

I just opened a thread in the P&R on that very subject...mind if I paste your experience into it?
Rob

 

[Iluv2Btickled]

Wait... I dont remember hearing anything about you having cancer!

What kind if I may ask? And you're talking as if......as if.......you're gonna.....

Edit; I did some research. I found out what kind. I am def going to pray for you and your family right now!

 

[PainTrain]

I am sorry to hear about this, amor. I had no idea. All I can say, is don't ever give up. All of us, have an obligation to fight until our last breath. Honor that.


I will pray for you every night. You can beat it.

 

[leafstk]

I'm so sorry to learn of this, Aun. My prayers are with you... keep strong!

 

[cloudgazer2k]

kick ass, aun! you can beat this and anything else put in your way! my thoughts are with you, Bob and your family.

 

[slap'n'ticklee]

Whatever I'm gonna say isn't gonna be enough and still make me feel inadecuate. I do hope that you aren't in alot of pain and really hope that your family are bearing up. I had hoped that the cancer wouldn't spread, you are being very brave and strong, I admire you so much for that.

When I read your thread title, I had hoped that it was gonna be some positive news that the cancer was contained and maybe even be diminishing.

I'll be thinking of you, you've got a strong will and this will pull you through these toughest of days.

When I read back, I really wanna hear some positive news about your condition, take care hon

 

[kered]

To Catherine

Dearest Catherine,
Having talked to you through pm's, email, and even with a shakey microphone on yahoo IM, I want you to know that I know you are a brave and thoughtful woman. I also want to thank you for befriending me and sharing photos of your beautiful home in the highlands and your family over the last year and a half. You are as sweet and intellegent, as well as firm in your stance on some outrages directed at you. You are also strong in your convictions and won't back up from these stated allegations about your gender and name. To make it short, you haven't lied about anything as to who and what you are. I want you to keep you faith and keep your hopes up. The last time we talked was about the most fun I've had in a long time. I am still trying to picture Bob under the desk trying to fix the microphone while trying to interpet your heavey brogue to me was priceless. We were laughing more than talking. I bring this story up because I don't want you giving up hope. I want you to get well and finally get Bob to bring you to a gathering over here so all will know what I know. Whether using the title Catherine or aun existe amor really doesn't matter. The woman behind the name does.

So you keep hope and get well. I still want to meet you and have you shake me like a small branch on a tree when I look at Bob and ask for the third time, "What did she say?".
I like to keep my friends around for a long time. I'm selfish, you know.

Love ya,
Dirk

 

[tkrexx]

What can I say, Aun? I had no idea, and I'm honestly sorry for that. We haven't had alot of interaction, mostly in the chatroom, but I could always see how much about Family you are. In that aspect we're alike. I had a scare some years back, and felt the same about those I might leave behind (significantly fewer than today). Nothing I can say will make any real difference, I just wanna add my voice to what will doubtless be the throngs of supporters who will show up in this thread, friends, weird or arses. And I will pray for you and yours. The good people need to stay around on this earth, and this forum. That means you. Please don't give up. Think what a pleasure it would be to stick around to give the arses what for in the future!

 

[Dave2112]

I wish you the best. As someone going through his own helath concerns, all I can say is stick with it. I went through almost a year of "there's little we can do" and "well, we're going to nned more tests" and all that. Finally, I'm starting to get somewhere.

If you're not happy with the treatment you get at any time, keep going. Find more. Do what you can. And try as hard as you can to keep as positive an attitude as you're able. This really does help to an extent.

Again, I wish you all the best.

Dave

 

[Mitchell]

Aun, I'm so sorry to hear that your cancer has spread. I hope and pray that when you are examined in six weeks time, that they can find some method of treatment that will work for you.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. My PM box and email are open to you anytime. I'm always keeping my fingers crossed for a reversal of your condition.

Take care,
Mitch

 

[brianspencer66]

Hi Aun I dont know you well but I know we may have talked in the chat from time to time and Im just finding this out. Stay strong and well we really look forward to one day seeing your wise and witty post here again. take care love always.

 

[drew70]

Amor, my heart and prayers are with you and with Bob. I've known you a long time and your strength and spirit during this difficult time is truly an inspiration. I hope when I face such a crisis, I'll draw on the strength you've shown through yours.

 

[Bel]

Hi Catherine my thoughts and prayers are with you and bob and if any one can fight this you can so take care and you will be back.

 

[kurchatovium]

I am praying for you and Bob every day hun. I hope with all my heart and soul you can beat this thing. If anyone can I know its you. If you need to talk I am always here for you. Wuv you so much.

 

[goddess_nemesis]

Hi aun, I know we've never talked, but you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope for the best for you. I can't image what you're going through and there's really nothing to say. All I can really say is that if you ever want to talk my PM box is open to you. 🙂

 

[maniactickler]

Im pulling for you. never give up! miraculous events do happen.

 

[lk70]

You're making the world a better place every minute you're in it. Not everyone can say that.

 

[Sultrybrunette]

Aun hon. I love you and still hope deep in my heart that you come through. I hope that you can get things taken care of, regarding your family, for your peace of mind. We miss you in the chatroom. Some of us can never find happiness. Your such a wonderful person and I am so glad that you have that in Bob.

 

[Mastertank1]

Damn, I'm sorry to hear that!

I will keep you in my nightly healing prayers/spells. They aren't strong enough to do much with curing cancer, but they seem to be able to slow it down some.
I haven't made a big fuss about it, but I have quietly admired you as a person for the time I've been here on TMF.
Thank you for being here, and for uplifting the overall tone of the place.
Mitch
aka

 

[tickledoc]

I will keep you and your family in my prayers, Aun. Live every day to its fullest, and love as you have never loved before; we all love you, and want you to know that your kindness and friendship has made each of us a better person. I know of no one on TMF who is more respected and loved. Be strong, be loved, and know that we are with you in this fight...we are all here for you.

With warmest regards and prayers,

Joe

 

[Capnmad]

Damn. Now I know why that 🙁 was attached to your PM... Sorry, babe. But there's hope yet... Know that you're in my thoughts, and your friends care about you. Talk to you soon.

 

[Luv2Tickle69]

My Dear, Sweet Aun....

....I don't think there's anything I can say that you haven't already heard....I think by now you know me well enough to know what I'm hoping for, praying for, and wishing for you in the weeks and months to come for where this tribulation is concerned.

...you've been the REAL DEAL from the day we first said 'Hello' to one another....and that's all I've ever asked of anybody that's in my life....be it in person or not. Thank YOU for being as such.

....bottom line here....YOU are STILL here.....and the blessing of that is ours, as well as it is for Bob, your daughter and family....may it perpetually endure.

 

[kis123]

Hey lady;

Your grace under fire has truly been appreciated by many as well as myself. I won't waste your time by telling you that I know how you feel because I couldn't possibly begin to understand unless I experienced your trial personally.

As a parent, my heart goes out to you and your daughter. As a friend, I know you have a lot of fight left in you and I know you won't be going down without a huge fight! To be exact, I won't think anything but the best outcome for you because you're one tough chick who I think can beat any challenge placed in front of her.

I wish you well and bid you the peace that surpasses all understanding. You will need it during this course of your journey. I'll keep my PM box open for you anytime. Take care and be blessed! You and your wonderful family are in my thoughts.

 

[TeeHeeLawrence]

Beaming hope...

Aun, that someone who projects such a lively spark of life could leave us prematurely is the saddest of thoughts. We are better for knowing you, and greedily want to know you longer. If there's any truth in mind over matter, then consider my mind fixed on your wellbeing. (Damn the cliche, but...) Where there's life...