I've been thinking..and i have always had trouble distinguishing reality from fantasty..and the forum only added fuel to that fire..i have to go...i'm not sure when or if i'll be back..this may seem dramatic to some, but i just wanted to let people know that when you don't see isabeau posting like for hmm over a few days, you won't think i'm dead..i'm ok..i have to put things back into perspective..and realize i have the best husband one could ever hope to have..and that i could have lost him, thanks to my own stupidity and gullibility...i've been living in a sort of limbo ever since mom died..she was such a focal point of my life, and to suddenly not have that dominating presence was almost too much to take...so when i discovered the internet and then especially this forum, i became obsessed..and that is not healthy for someone such as myself who dreams too much and grew up on fairy tales...i've hurt some here who i truly loved...however i now need to focus my life with my husband...those of you who have my email and my msn and yahoo..i'll still be there...i've just decided that the forum is dangerous for my over active imagination and my vulnerability... i love the forum..i'll miss it dreadfully...i hate goodbyes...i may be back and then again i may not..thank you all for accepting me and being friendly...i'll miss you...